When I was going through my writings on depression previously, I wrote several entries about the benefits of depression. I think those are valid and valuable lessons from the experience.
However, much of what I’ve struggled with recently have been the negative outcomes of accepting the depression (for the benefit of working through it and trying to progress).
One of the main negative outcomes is that of having accepted a mediocre outcome, rather than the best I can do. I believe my average is still above average in most things, which sounds conceited.
So the concern I come to is “how do I get back to always doing my best without losing the actual benefits from experiencing depression?”
How do I make sure the things I actually do are amazing, even if the total things I do may not be as wide nor as varied?
Is it simply time to funnel? To close doors again, and tunnel in on even fewer things?
Given that, how do I choose? How do I select a single thing to do or two that I will get back on the horse, so to speak, and excel at?