There is an image I have in my head. An old time cartoon car (because what happens isn’t possible, but it is in cartoons) looses all its connections (bolts, nuts, etc.) and keeps running.
It just keeps going.
Until the driver becomes aware it shouldn’t, then it just falls to pieces.
I’m both the car and the driver.
All the connection points have already been pulled, broken, or popped out.
And I’m just running on existing momentum.
Everything should just fall apart.
But it hasn’t yet.
Things keep moving forward. And the only thing I can think is that momentum is holding it together.