Am I running toward something?
Or running from something?
We picked up everything and left, ostensibly because we were seeking recovery and healing. But we definitely left work and things to do behind.
In that way, it was a selfish thing and was a “running away from” event.
I haven’t really had any healing or recovery since arriving. I’ve barely been able to do the basics (which may or may not be slightly more than I was doing before), and so if we were “running toward” we haven’t even come close yet.
Like before, we continue to over schedule our free time, talk frustratedly without coming to conclusions, and do nothing that involves slowing down or resting.
I have no more interest in doing anything that is had before. What I accomplish is disinteresting and rote at best.
Seems like we’ve traded like for like without actually stepping forward.
So all we did was waste a bunch of money changing locations.