My biggest fear is that I’m going to break down like I did in 2015. Now that I’m married, someone else gets those consequences, too.
She doesn’t need them.
It’s not a punishment, but it’s not something she needs to experience.
I’ve tried really hard to hedge against this.
But apparently all my hedging has literally led me into it.
It would be a lot easier if the outcomes only affected me.
Having it affect her worsens things exponentially.